Monday, November 17, 2008
all these makes me feel likes crying out loud.
what were you thinking.
i just dont know,
please tell me.
dont give me false hope.
i beg you.
we're talking like we did last time..
is this possible?
or is it just wishful tinking on my part?
deep inside..
how i wished it was true.
i wanted you so much to be mine again.
mine.
forever mine.
but is it possible?
in the past.
we loved each other so dearly.
we chatted for hours on the fone.
we called each other names.
that was the times i felt that i was the happiest girl on earth.
but we broke up 3 times.
and patched up twice.
is it possible for us to patch up once again?
is it possible that if we did,
it would last forever?
it seems like a fantasy, a fairytale..
but i reallyreally wish and pray.
for this fairytale to come true.
i want my happy ever after.
i want it to last forever.
i bought you a bear holding a towel from korea.
i hope it helps to wipe away your tears..
your pain..
cause i want to be that bear.
always catching your tear when it falls.
please..
im losing myself.
im losing control.
when did it start?
how did it start?
and how do we end this crazyness..
could you tell me?
you taught me how to love.
you taught me how to laugh
you taught me how to sing and reach for my dreams.
you taught me how to trust.
you taught me how to give my all for you.
and i fell.
i fell so hard..
you just let me go.
i fell down the cliff.
hurt and hopeless.
n matter how i tried to get up.
i couldnt.
that shine of hope was disappearing.
and so were you..
12:47 PM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
i feeel so low......
so down...
i dont know how many times i've cried today.
i want you..
i need you..
but.
where are you..
you are just so far away..
u said i had no quality..
i guess you're right.
im useless, worthless, and hurting.
hurting cause of you..
u said i had bad attitude.
i din know that you'd think of me like that.
its just soo hurtful..
even if you're just making up stories.
miss you.
missed you the most.
11:38 PM
i really din mean it.
they really broke up.
im wondering if its my fault.
haiz...
if it was...
i'd feel so guilty.
maybe they quarrelled over me.
*sigh*
yinaaaaa...
but now..
hes talking to me and not her..
its suddenly seems too good to be true..
but in another view..
shes hurting soo much..
she fell so hard..
yina im so sorry
i din mean it..
i noe how it feels.
it hurts until u feel like dying..
jin....
i din expect u two to break up u know..
i really dont know whye...
i dont know the story yet..
but from her blog..
it seems like u just pushed her away...
like discarding sth useless..
is it true?
are you that ruthless?
i wont believe its you..
unless you tell me personally...
i want the jin that is
fun, cool and loving..
i really dont want to see
a guy with a heart of stone...
i miss you..
soo much..
i want you...
but would u?
1:10 AM
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
tears roll down her face..
its all over.
no matter what she tells herself.
maybe shes lying to herself.
to make her feel lesser pain..
she tells herself..
it'll be alright soon.
everything will return to how it was..
he still loves you..
but deep down in her heart she knows...
its not true.
they're so in love..
so blissful tgt.
its impossible for them to part..
but she feels a jealousy...
she hates herself so much..
the girl's her good friend.
the guy's her ex.
how could she do that to them..
she just cant.
its unfair to them.
6:56 PM
[ from another blog ]
i realise it's been long i post something for my boyfriend already i bet he miss it right? heehee.
dearest boyfriend, have i been giving you the love you always wanted?
i hope i did, if i didn't please tell me i'll just give you more (:
you hold me tight and prevent me from falling
you hug me and gave me the warmth i've always needed
boyfriend you are all i wanted
i PROMISE i will never want to leave you
you got my heart KIDNAPPED.
If only you knew how to encourage me.
If only you knew how to pull me up.
If only you knew how to make me smile.
If only you knew how to help me gain that confidence.
If only you knew how to get a little respect for me.
If only you knew how to stop my tears.
If only you knew how to stop my heart from bleeding.
If only you knew how to love me without hurting me.
If only you knew how to not stress me.
If only you knew how to give me more hope.
If only you knew how to support me.
this was the past and i love my future cause you knew how to do all these already !
that why i say i LOVE my BOYFRIEND so MUCHMUCHMUCH ! <3
you make my life perfect <3 iLOVEu.
my mr SUNSHINE
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i really dont want to.
but im jealous.
he never let me feel all those.
*sighs*
gy.. where are you when i need u.
although its unfair to tell u all my problems
but i really dont have anyone else to say to..
you're the only one who understands me..
i hate crying..
i really hate it,
it makes me feel so helpless and vunerable..
i want to be strong...
i want to smile.
but even now i smile..
its not from my heart at all.
im waiting..
waiting for that special someone to make me smile.
feel blissful..
feel like the whole world so bright again..
but i know.
its impossible.
cause noone would ever love me.
im that unwanted.
6:48 PM
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
boyfriend.
i miss you...
okay i admit.
i do feel a bit jealous though.
you two having so much fun together.
leaving me feeling so alone.
but i cant do anything.
although sometimes i selfishly wish
that he will one day leave you and come back to me.
but i know..
its impossible,
and even if he does.
i'll be betraying you.
and i know i cant bring myself to do that.
i'll just have to control.
thats all.
i can do it.
no.
i have to do it..
boyfriend i love you.
no mattter what.
8:26 PM
