Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Unrequited Love is ;
when you love in vain.
Unrequited Love is ;
when you give your heart freely, but it is unwanted.
Unrequited Love is ;
when your professed love is untaken.
Unrequited Love is ;
when you hopelessly devote your full attention
on that special someone and it goes unnoticed.
Unrequited Love is ;
when you feel as if you will die without that someone,
yet that special someone would not even
move a muscle or blink an eye if you were to die.
We really hate this fragile stage,
when you’re like a broken window
that’s been taped back together,
poised to crash back to the floor as soon as the wind blows.
You convince yourself you’re good as new
when in fact you’re still a mass of shards.
It’s so horribly pathetic
& yet so brave at the same time.
10:02 PM
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
yesterday night is a weird dream.
but, i still cried like a baby for you.
Yes, you're always in my memories.
yes i admit ;
i do love you .
but so what ?
you dont want me .
我竟然没有调头
最残忍那一刻,
静静看你走 一点都不像我
原来人会变得温柔 是透彻的懂了
爱情是流动的 不由人的
何必激动着要理由
相信你只是怕伤害我 不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得
把我的梦摇醒了
宣布幸福不会来了
用心酸微笑去原谅了 也翻越了
有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的
开始懂了 快乐是选择
11:01 PM
Monday, May 25, 2009
im just ;
not welcomed .
not welcomed ;
not wanted .
10:26 PM
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
im unwanted .
im always the one ;
who makes all the effort .
why cant my friends do the same ?
why do i keep feeling so outcast .
my heart pains ;
it hurts & its tearing apart .
i cant control anymore .
im like an overflowing glass bottle ;
fragile & crying .
i know ;
nothing's going to work out .
i cant be helped .
the only thing im going to do now ;
is isolate myself .
8:45 PM
Monday, May 18, 2009
the feeling of wanting to cry ;
i keep supressing it down .
but im losing control .
my moodswings getting worse ;
going crazy .
*screams*
somebody ;
someone ;
anyone ;
save me .
10:48 PM
Sunday, May 17, 2009
moodswings .
somehow so hard to bear ;
wonder why .
im really silly .
laughing ; crying ; glum ; cheery
blank ; angry
all in a day .
whats really happening to me ?
i dont know .
nightmares almost everyday ;
im really tired .
i really cant hold on .
but im going to try .
& somehow ;
im thinking of that december day again .
its like a scar on my hand ,
un-erasable .
11:15 PM
Saturday, May 16, 2009
i wonder .
if i should just let you go .
because ever since that day .
i cant seem to fully trust you .
something is holding me back .
the fear of being deceived is always there .
what am i supposed to do .
i guess i should try .
try to let you go .
try to forget all our happy memories we made .
try to stop all the pain i feel for you .
i wonder if the day will come when ;
i will stop loving you .
i hope it comes soon .
because i dont think i can go on ,
if i keep missing you .
im sorry baby .
i'll always remember you .
but for myself ;
i have to let you go .
im sorry ;
zhirong .
6:20 PM
Friday, May 15, 2009
What do you want ?!
you're turning my life upside down.
Dont you trust me !
i dont understand..
i really was suddenly so afraid & confused .
& somehow ;
this time all my instincts
ask me go get away from you .
i wonder if im really very silly ;
to actually believe tt you love me .
truth is i dont think you do .
dont play with me ;
i wont forgive you .
11:43 PM
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Im confused .
why did you suddenly surfaced in my life again ?
is this for real ?
is what you say true ?
you said it was all a make up .
you said it was just to make me lose hope .
until aft Olvls you will ;
guang ming zhen da de woo me .
you will ma ?
im afraid .
im afraid that ;
im getting my hopes too high agn .
im afraid that ;
when i begin to trust you again ,
you will suddenly let go of me .
i will really be devasted i think .
so if you really dont mean to love me ;
dont appear .
please ; i beg you .
i will only fall in love with you deeper .
but its doesnt matter .
I know i love you ;
but unrequited love is really painful .
I can say i'm truly happy to this day .
You made me thank god that ;
I live my life everyday
there's never been a doubt in my mind ;
that i regret ever having you by my side
but if the day comes that i have to let you ,
think there's something
i should probably let you should know ;
I enjoyed everyday that i spent with you
& I won't miss you because ;
I'm happy that i had you at all
9:12 PM
Friday, May 8, 2009
i feel empty .
i know ;
i just cant forget you .
i yearn to have you by my side again.
but it seems so impossible .
why ;
why whenever i start to fall in love again ,
i lose the feeling ,
i lose you ,
i lose everything .
Happily ever after ,
that’s how they want you to think it will be .
But its not, not at all in reality ,
the tears ,
the fears ,
the falls ,
through it all we still go on ,
the broken hearts ,
the cheating friends ,
so much pain that never ends .
The fake smiles ,
that seem to make everything ok ,
but not for me ,
because i know the pain won’t go away .
Bright and cheery but oh so weary ,
because inside, my heart is breaking in two.
I know i made a lot of
stupid mistakes in my life .
but the worst one ;
was thinking the person who hurt me the most ,
wouldn’t hurt me again .
if only you would come back .
if only i would stop loving you .
if only i could forget you ;
if only ..
but i cant .
why you mean the world to me ;
when i mean nothing to you .
why ..!
its really painful ..
its really painful to try to live on without you .
its that i just dont even want to try to .
11:42 PM
