now you're so happy so blissful. im really happy for you i nvr wanted to see u unhappy. i nvr wanted to see you cry.
although its been so long since that fateful day but it still stays vivid inside my mind the way we laughed and joked with each other the way u teased me and how i felt. i nvr felt so happy b4 even if it was just a short time we had tgt but now you've found ur own right gurl. a gurl that loves u more than i do. a girl more worth of you. i also know, i cant match up to you. and i know.. you love her much more than u love me in the past. although it hurts but no matter what my love for you.. will never change. now i cant trust myself to love anymore im afraid that i'll get hurt agn im afraid that i will fall too deep in love agn and when the breakup day comes.. i will be in agony.. misery.. and pain. i really dont want to feel this pain anymore because im afraid that i'll collapse i'll breakdown....
and now my family is starting to have probs. we keep quarreling over a small matter. i really dont want this to happen its not that i want to quarrel or fight.. but sometimes i feel that i dont belong in this family u keep picking on me. all of u dont trust me at all. i really hate this feeling its very tiring do you know? i feel so vunerable.. so fragile... this is the least thing i need.. i really want us to be united and loving agn do you know the feeling of going home but the home does not feel like a home at all? it feels like a stranger's house.. cold and aloof i really hate this feeling. i hate myself.. i hate myself to be so impatient. i hate my temper. i hate everything...
9:46 PM
That Girl ;
a girl wearing that mask ,
smiling at everyone everyday ;
appearing so cheerful ,
but inside,
shes crying her heart out ,
Single / Attached
Love ;
If i could ever have a choice ;
i wont want to face this coldness .
Everyday ,
Wincing at all of your judgements.
Its really painful .
