Monday, February 23, 2009
i cant explain this pain my heart .
a deep wrenching pain .
its as though my heart is being split into two .
i keep crying and crying ..
but the pain does not go away .
i keep wondering why..
why does god wan to play with my feelings.
i even broke a promise i gave to my friend .
i promised never to cut myself ever again .
and i did not .
but ytd i broke that promise..
i cut my wrist with my rusty panknife .
at least it takes away a bit of my pain ..
people seem to drift away from me .
its so scary..
to see all my loved ones leaving my side .
im so afraid .
i tried to do the best i can;
be nice to everyone,
look pretty.
keep up with trends,
helpful,
doing whatever people asks me to.
but why.
why does this still happen to me?
am i just not good enough ?
i dont know what to do anymore.
im just so broken .
wondering how to patch myself up..
wandering around in a lifetime of darkness..
9:02 PM
