Saturday, February 28, 2009
She stares at the sky..
so grey, so dark ..
its going to rain soon.
thunder rumbles above.
huge droplets of rain pelts down on her.
she knows she doesnt fit in..
she doesnt fit in anywhere.
this is a feeling shes used to.
a feeling of loneliness and sadness.
tears roll uncontrollably down..
mixing with the ran dripping down her face.
she wonders how to pass the next day.
as she sits all alone on the swing.
she scolds herself for being stupid.
its all self deception.
" everything will turn out fine "
she told herself this countless times
but it never once came true.
she knows shes being used.
she knows people just talk to her
just for the sake of her work.
but she still does her best for others..
hoping and praying one day they will realise
&& treat her genuinely well.
" i love you "
something she hears almost everyday.
but what use does it have ?
when it isnt true ?
but it still makes her feel abit better.
even though its not true.
to her .
Love never existed.
Because,
loving someone is just too painful .
4:26 PM
