Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Cant you see im going crazy .
im going mad from stress .
stress from everyone , myself .
i dont know what to do .
i feel like giving up & just disappear .
even at night ;
i cry so much that i tremble .
i grasp the bedsheet until my knuckles turn blue .
this feeling, its so scary .
Threatening to overwhelm me ;
take control ,
And slowly im giving in .
i dont feel warmness anymore .
i feel so cold .
like i dont know anyone on this earth .
i feel like i want to destroy myself ;
but how can i do that .
everytime i think of the heartbreak i will cause to my grandmother ,
i stop & think .
i cant .
i must smile , show her im okay & happy .
My head hurts .
Just what am i supposed to do ..
8:02 PM
