Monday, August 10, 2009
i read this somewhere ;
Here's another thing this past year has been trying to teach me:
I don't have a weight problem
I have a self-care problem that manifests through weight.
As my friend Marianne Williamson shared with me,
"Your overweight self doesn't stand before you craving food. She's craving love."
Falling off the wagon isn't a weight issue;
it's a love issue.
i wonder if its right ..
i dont have much hope now ;
now everytime i see myself ,
a fat ugly girl surfaces ..
i claw at all the lumps of fat ;
trying to make it disappear..
if it disappears everything would be alright..
im craving for love ;
i want someone to hold me close and tell me ;
i make everything special ,
that if im not here ; everything goes wrong ,
tell me im needed , wanted ..
but it justs doesnt work this way .
9:09 PM
