Saturday, August 15, 2009
Im really that useless ?
i ruin everything ..
im just a waste of space ,
who did i think i am ..
im not special ,
im just someone to turn to if you people need help .
you are such a hypocrite .
why do you only treat me as a fwen when you need me .
i make mistakes ,
but why ,
why must you glare and scream at me like that ..
you broke my heart .
i just realised ,
i dont even understand you , i dont even know you .
im always the one looking for you ..
so yes i get the point .
i'll get out of your life for you .
im going to keep quiet from now on .
im not going to speak another unnecessary word..
i dont want to .
my heart aches so much ..
it hurts to know i spoil everything ..
im going crazy .
im really freaking out ..
i cant even control my body & mind anymore .
its like bulimia is part of my everyday life now ..
i hate myself .
but how ,
i dont know how to destroy myself .
2:24 PM
