Sunday, February 7, 2010
today's a mess ,
im a wreck .
i just dont know what to do ,
im just lost .
in a sea of emotions .
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senior ,
why didnt you tell me you had a girlfriend ,
i thought you told me everything .
if i know you did ,
i wouldn't ask you out to tutor me maths alr .
i feel so dumb ,
deep down i know ,
im just lonely , wanting company .
im just not that strong after all .
aft talking about dg to you ,
i realised that even though dg treats me so bad ,
i still like him , i love him .
i just hope for a miracle to come & take me away .
talking about him ,
tears fall unvoluntarily .
i dont want to cry infront of you .
i wanted to be strong ,
but why arent i strong enough yet .
maybe , maybe i just need more time .
build a wall around me .
showing only my happy face .
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darling ,
why dont you understand dg ,
i cant live without you .
i cant even smile .
but why do you have to keep saying hurting words like that .
my heart tears itself into two everything you do that .
im in pain .
im in so much agony ,
you dont understand at all ,
how it feels to wait for something so far away .
you know ,
im so tired of chasing after you .
mentally , physically .
its like you dont give a damn about me at all .
even if i dont ask you out , call you or text you .
i'll recieve nothing from you at all .
am i that worthless in your heart ?
or are you just toying with me ?
tears fall whenever i think about this ,
but i try to believe ,
i try to hope ,
i just dont want to be broken by you .
waiting for you is so hard ,
its like waiting for rain in an african drought ,
useless and disappointing .
& my heart aches .
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baoyi ,
im sorry i didnt care much for you .
i didnt mean to .
i may be quiet & keep things to myself .
but actually i worry most .
just that i dont know how to say it .
i seem so dumb , so useless .
im just sorry .
i know sy and kar are better friends than i am .
but i just want you to know ,
if one day ;
you cant find anyone to share your feelings ,
console you , hug you .
im always here for you .
here to push you back up ,
even if it means sacrificing myself .
babe i love you .
sorry that im so useless .
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im not that strong ;
save me somebody ,
please i beg you .
save me ..
12:10 AM
