Friday, March 5, 2010
Im feeling so sour ,
i see people so happy around me ,
couples so loving ,
families so close together .
Everyone i know is so blissful ,
but why me .
Why only i have to go through all this pain ?
i haven done anything wrong .
what have i done , heaven ?
what have i done to make you treat me like this ?
Why am i always the different one ?
Why am i always the one being left out ?
All the outings , meetings , dates .
I guess even though i give my all to my friends ,
i just dont mean a thing to you all .
but its hard to face this fact ,
its so tiring to just keep trying and trying ;
when i know i wont succeed .
these hopes of mine always get dashed time and time agn ,
if only i wasnt so hopeful everytime round ,
then i wont be so badly hurt .
i know im not needed ,
i know im the extra one ;
that you all turn to when you all need me .
but please dont make it so obvious ,
it hurts me whenever you all leave me alone .
im still a person , im still a girl .
how do you all know i dont have feelings ?
you all cant understand this constant pain in my heart .
it wont disappear & i think it'll never disappear .
couples so loving ,
but mine ?
i always seem to fall for the wrong guy ,
especially this time round ,
its a jerk , i know that ,
but i fell so hard for him .
its going to hurt i know .
its already hurting ;
the past wounds all reopening ,
each hurting word and sentence ,
cutting the wound deeper .
you never seem to be around ,
you never even cared for me .
this feeling its as though you're not part of my life .
sometimes you walk past without even realising im there ,
you dont even talk or ask me out at all ,
how are we going to carry on like that ?
i know you told my friend ;
you got tgt with me already thinking we wont last ,
if you think this way and not try ,
of course we wont ..
we will never do out best .
i dont want to get hurt ,
even tho i know its inevitable .
but its all my fault ,
for just being me .
lifes so hard to carry on ,
but i'll just try ,
try my best even if i fall a dozen times .
try my best even if i'll never succeed .
try my best even if i'll end up torn & painful .
10:27 PM
