Saturday, March 20, 2010
is it that im just not pretty ?
or im just not kind enough ?
so many things happening at once,,
im being torn apart .
im breaking .
bit by bit , shattering into pieces .
suddenly im wishing for that day to come .
maybe then i wont be so tired..
i didnt want to be like this either !
this world ,
this huge world ..
is it only slim & beautiful girls can rule ?
why cant we ,
the fat , chubbier & ugly people , have a say ?
does it mean i have to be thin & beautiful before im accepted ?
before i'll ever fit in ?
i know you'll say you never said that .
but every action , every word of yours is screaming that at me !
it hurts .
i'd admit .
i always say i'll ignore you all because it isnt true ,
but deep down im contradicting myself ..
it matters to me what people say ,
i have no either why either..
if being thin and beautiful can make me fit in..
i'll do it..
i'll do anything to be accepted & loved..
because now its like hell to me .
life's tormenting..
from now ,
i vow .
i wont eat ever again .
not until im thin & beautiful .
12:13 AM
