Monday, May 3, 2010
i only want you all to try understanding me .
all this time ,
you all only put heavier burdens on me .
i tried my hardest .
i really do..
why wont anyone believe me .
its breaking my heart ,
that you're my family .
but you dont even feel like one .
so distant ,
under the cloudy grey sky ,
the pain i feel is what you all wont understand .
i only wanted to smile ,
be happy ,
but all these you all wont even let me .
how can i continue..
its such a strain .
even my sickness , i tried to tell you .
granny i tried !
but you didnt even believe me..
you said im talking rubbish..
but it isnt .
deep down ,
i know its wrong .
its wrong to start resenting you all .
but its hard ..
i only feel safe & myself when im with kenny ,
why cant even i show my true self at home..
its like theres a glass wall isolating us .
i love you baby .
thankyou for being there for me .
9:54 PM
