Saturday, June 19, 2010
love ?
its a huge lie .
& i hate myself for letting my heart go .
cause i cant forget you at all..
i still remember every second of us tgt ,
our laughter , our jokes ,
all etched deeply..
its been a month since tht wednesday..
since then my heart never healed .
i've never removed you from my mind..
are you happy ?
cause i hope you are..
i wonder so many times..
even now do you think of me ?
sitting here staring at the ring you gave me..
i kept wanting to fling it away..
but my heart just cant let go of you .
all the times we spent ,
were the happiest i ever had..
the way i snuggled up to you in the cinema ,
the way you nibbled my ear and i giggled..
all the love we shared..
it just disappeared like that .
i had never been so broken ,
so hurt..
i dont even try to vent my feelings out here anymore..
cause everytime i empty my soul here..
i get emptier and colder within..
i dont know what i can do..
but Lord ,
help me . i beg you .
Save me from all these torture..
its so painful that i just want to let it all out ,
turn into sth unrecognisable ..
give in to the wild side of me ,
oh Lord ,
save my soul from the torture..
its like living hell for me..
i cant sleep at night like i used to..
tears always stream down my cheeks ,
as i lay on the pillow..
as i lay down ,
memories replaying in my mind .
the once again reminder that ,
i've already lost you .
1:10 AM
